ellemhach

Damn Hot.

well, I’m in Cairns. Hanging out with Stevie baby, Maria, Kathryn, and trying to avoid the guard dog. Should be moving into his new place …

time to go!

I fly out on Saturday, 20th September, 6pm. The way this last week has gone, frankly, I can’t wait. Yesterday, I was going to update …

“Metaphoric compromise along a path of unknown destination.”

Lead me down the garden path
Let me believe that it’s all ok
Dream of escape with intent to elucidate
But the key remains unconscious.

Foolish things and heartbreak
Collide in drunken rambling
Long forgotten hidden never to surface
Under daylight’s hurtful glow.

“You’re from the heart, and so happy”
“I have my moments” but true I was
but few can know how hard that makes
this ever increasing daily show.

Exhibitionist avatar
Intellectualized introvert
Compromised hurled aside
Never before and never more
Turn around and begin again
Painful wrench of soul and then…

Tears fall opposing the fear the waste the love the hate the grief the relief
It’s all a relief the outpouring the ability the opening the return the mess the pain
But none more so that the wonder the curiosity the hope the healing the… the… contact.

Dramatic turn of faith and then…
we play HE SAID; SHE SAID:
HE SAID: So how are you going?
SHE SAID: Oh, you know, round in circles.
HE SAID: Well, it is said to be a spiral, but is it expanding or collapsing?
SHE SAID: Both.
HE SAID: Ahaa!

I feel hypocrisized. The difference between being true to heart and the desire to Not Hurt Others.

Debris.

Contact made. Links long forgotten re-established. Compliments from a drunken and obviously delusional elderly gent of curious Asian-Pacific genetic heritage take, noted, and reflected on. …