entry #30.. at least its still going..
if I hold it close to my heart…
if I had thought about it first…
if I let you in on the secret…
if I could put you on a pedestal…
if you would take better care of yourself…
if you could consider the consequences…
if I allowed you any more leeway…
if I had let you get away with it…
if I was more like the rest of the world…
if I could change the way I react…
if you would let me go…
if I could break free of the past…
sshhheeeeesshhh.. hush out there!! ugh.. i have an asshole/leafblower problem, and it wont go away.. i do not like you in a car i do …
i was given a moment of insight.. there was nothing complicated, it was simple, sweet, honesty, and it warmed my soul.. i may be having …
i remember waiting on the front porch, crying my eyes out because she was late.. which made me late.. i thought she didn’t care.. and …
i feel like a caricature of myself sometimes.. but that can be a good thing.. its cold tonight, so i’m all wrapped up in a …
“I cried in the sunlight, would I fake all the times I loved you, just a play in a game I twisted with you, with …
all i can say is “woah..” its been a “woah..” kind of week.. and its only wednesday. I can’t think much beyond that.. I just …
geh.. so i woke up, my shoulder is still aching, i had the ODDEST dream about my sister.. i cant explain why, but the dream …
well.. all i can say is “uh..hmm.. um, well.. yes.” sigh silly me.. i shouldnt have said that.. but i did, and its too late …
change can be a hard thing to take, but the realisation hit me after it was over, so its no big thing this time.. not …
i feel like i have been trampled by a herd of elephants.. i am so completely exhausted (post-gran, mum, leon, exhibition) that i no longer …
i suppose this thing is feeling a little bit neglected. yes, i’m still alive. there’s nothing like the smell of guano in the morning.. hahaha.. …
finally got in contact with mum tuesday night… well my gran is better.. sorta. its a long story.. she went in for surgery yesterday, they …
talk about living in a soap opera.. lemme see.. my ex boyfriend remembered my birthday joy (please note the sarcasm); one of my very good …
This will take some explaining but I think you will agree There is no use pretending that there’s hope for you and me.. … It …
happy birthday to me… i have too much to do today.. this isn’t right.. i should be able to relax today.. after all.. i’m old …
lou’s party was cool – i got as drunk as i needed to be, and nothing major happened, it was just very relaxing… except for …
sometimes a resounding “No” can be both relieving and very liberating. its hard to describe, but it happened today.. i had a very girly day …
all i remember is that Lorraine was the ‘mastermind’ behind it, and that Sarah was telling me how wonderful motherhood is (“You really should do …
