extension upon the previous rant.

extension upon the previous rant.

now descending into a form of depression, this is starting to bug me. it goes further than was explained the other day. i’ve now been here just on seven months, and i just feel like i’m not settling in. i’m starting to wonder if i should move on already. feel like i’m banging my head against too many brick-walls, and that’s never fun, no matter where you are…

after seven months, i have exactly three people i can call and say “hey, what are you up to? wanna do something?” one i live with, and one has a slight problem with me. so, y’know, make that two.

as for the folks from work, they’re mostly “i’ll chat, but i’m going straight home to my family, my life.” work itself is fine, great, even ‘rewarding and satisfying’ – but it’s not the only thing i need in my life. and i guess, my problem is, that i feel like that’s all i have at the moment. it’s the only thing is going well. i count my blessings, i could still be in the position of not having that. or having a job that i can’t wait to get away from.

i dunno, i think i’m just lonely. i see & talk to maybe 30 different people a day, but i have no one i can really talk to. i’m lonely.

blahfuck.

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