long time, no write.

nothing decent to write, anyway. lots going on, but i lack the perspective and inspiration to write anything about it. shrug

my parents have been and gone, promising to return within a month, spent time with my sister and her family, stuff between me & clay; but generally everything’s ok.

the only major recent issue: my parents think i’m suddenly too thin (even though i feel fine, healthy, and gasp shock horror attractive, even. they don’t notice that though, they can only see that i am a tad thinner than i was last time i saw them. go figure. if they keep going on about it, i’m going to develop an image-based anxiety complex about my weight. parents. gotta love ’em.)

feeling vastly usettled over the weekend through to today though, and i have no idea why. it’s just a catch 22 though.. the thing that will fix it, will make it worse, the thing that makes it worse, fixes it. sorta.

dunno.. feel like i’ve lost the ability to explain myself, even to myself, and that doesn’t help when there’s someone else asking for an explanation.

blargh. hope you’re all doing better than i am.