ug. i’m exhausted. and we haven’t even finished filming yet… its a bit difficult to finish filming when your co-star ends up spending 3 hours in a hospital following an asthma attack.. and you’re covered in tiny scratches from rolling in (or, being ‘thrown’ onto) a bed covered in broken glass.. actually, that wasn’t so bad.. the worst of it was the general emotional exhaustion from having to force yourself from going from a playful romantic mood, to manipulative, to self-mutilation violence. as i said, ‘intense filming going on here’.
then today, having to switch characters, going back to the stage production rehearsals again… and with 3 scenes of the film to go, i can’t let go of her (the psycho) completely…..
i’m exhausted. and there’s other stuff i could talk about.. but i haven’t been able to define that to myself, let alone able to define it to anyone else..
i don’t know where i am.. i’m somewhere between two characters, and a third person….
good lord….what on earth is this thing about?????
it’s a fucked-up relationship story, and actually based on reality.. one of princess’s previous relationships… she’s psychotic, and he’s trying to cope…
the scene where she tries to attack herself with the broken bottle, then jump out the window actually happened.. at the end of the relationship, she was diagnosed with paranoid schitzophrenia..
as i said, it’s intense…
and you volunteered for this role?
yea.. i know i sound crazy, but i actually enjoy the acting, and the opportunity to push myself in a different direction..
*shrug*