i had a vAry disturbing dream this morning… it wasn’t a nightmare, it just dealt with an issue that, until now, i have refused to acknowledge within myself. and now i can’t get it out of my head. honestly, i’ve had an intense weekend.. and to cap it off with this dream is, well, it has rattled me, put it that way. stress always makes my dreams go even further into insanity. they get very bizarre, very symbolic, or very analytical. and this one? uh.. i dont know what it is. i cant work it out.
i’ve dreamt of a few people from the past in the last week or so.. i had a very odd one in the middle of last week, about an someone that i despise.. we had (yet another) argument, and i won. well, not so much that i ‘won’, as he retreated.. its the second time i’ve had a dream like that about him.
but this dream this morning.. i think it comes down to the fact that the past, the present, and the future won’t leave me alone at the moment.. still.. i could do without images of John Dalla finding me half naked in the snow..
i think i’m still half asleep.. i got woken up by the phone.. t’was my doctor.. she had to change my appointment, she’s going away for a few days.. blargh.. this is dragging on too long.. i want to get it over and done with. work out what’s wrong, fix it, and move on.