i am so exhausted.. the meeting with Lou went for fivefuckinghours .. and we have another meeting tomorrow.. whee.. it was good though.. we got through a lot of little things that had been lying around, waiting to be done, and sorted out some major issues.. like.. this morning, she decided that she wanted to change the premise for membership from just artists to creative professionals.. that may seem like just a linguistic or cosmetic change to some.. but it invokes a hefty conceptual/functional change.. argh. ’nuff of that.
it wasn’t all business today.. we had a heart to heart as well.. gawd.. i hate that phrase.. anyway..she’s had some troubles lately, which she filled me in about.. then we talked about me.. and all that.. she finally realises how worried i am about it all.. and why.. then we talked about us as a friendship, and as a business partnership.. she.. and this really surprised me.. she mentioned that she noticed that we have troubles when i have trouble with jody.. interesting correlation.. she has a point though.. she didn’t have the back ground info (ie: childhood crap i went through.. based on classical two child families, and the stereotype psychological profiles of the children, and how my family differed from that) but, she was right.. jody takes my authority, and gains the superior position within our relationship, and instead of rebelling, and fighting her for that position, i retreat from the spotlight, and find authority, or attention, elsewhere… well, i’ve stepped on Lou’s toes a few times.. sneaking in on her spotlight, i guess.. it’s a pattern that i’m working on.. ohh… speaking of profiles.. i told Lou about the name interpretation thingy site… she told me that yesterday..she was all worried about confronting me with some of the business issues..so she chose a rune for me… well, the description was so me… the runes she has are based on Egyptian Mythology… it was Bastet – cat goddess …..
ph33r and shock i went to the IMA.. the Freshcuts show.. it wasn’t bad, even though i had to leave early and what. with so many people there, the IMA gets so hot.. i couldn’t handle it.. i was quite ill, sir. i had to get out of there.. anywho.. i’m off to bed.. ‘nother big day and what..
g’night..