things are weird all over the place, i don’t know what is going on within the confines of my mind&heart combined. there’s stuff to say, but i can’t, i don’t know how, or to whom i need to say it. the multi-faceted humour is gaining momentum in a way in which i can’t control, problem being, i’m not sure if i want to control it – i want to ride this wave to see where it goes, even though i know i shouldn’t.
doubt creeps in to my life and i don’t have the power to voice it. opportunity is minimal, and reluctance takes over. this may just be my own fear of being owned sneaking up and making itself known, but there could be something in it. the ‘history never repeats’ line enters my head and i have so much difficulty believing it.
review went well. asked for what i want, and received a positive response, so i think things will move when she’s ready to do so.
Such is the travel from one to the other, as one becomes the other; and we realise the other was never there.