before:
lying, curled up on the sofa, back aching, intermittent waves of cramping, Smashing Pumpkin’s Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness (disk one, Dawn to Dusk) playing, princess on one of the black chairs, occasionally babbling something or other (either random thoughts, or a “feeling any better” or something of the like), while i drifted between reality and somwhereother. all i could notice, were the waves of pain, and the vibration from the sub.. and the wafting flashes of memories of last weekend.
and somewhere there, i drifted off to sleep..
(now, i should note here, that it’s usually princess that falls asleep on the sofa, not me. this is a big thing. i haven’t fallen asleep on a sofa since i was very little.)
i woke, hearing the footsteps as he walked away, after he placed my blue fluffy bunny beside me.. this fluffy bunny is, as yet, unnamed.
decided i should go to bed.. feeling quite drunk, despite having had nothing alcoholic in my system since monday, i struggled up, grabbed the bunny, and wandered off in the general direction of my bedroom. “you going to bed?” “yea” “good, ‘night” “g’night,” closed the door, and collapsed in bed.
proceeded for the next hour to get comfortable. i failed miserably.
reluctantly got up. munched on Doritos while sitting on front steps. decided i had thoughts to translate into text, dialled up, wandered to the kitchen, grabbed a glass of water and the pack of neurofen, back to computer, sat down, began typing.
now:
distant sound of Rage on tv, distant sound of traffic, distant feeling somewhereother. vague feeling that i want to be somewhere else. waiting for neurofen to kick in…