I can’t change their behaviour patterns, but dammit, I’m fed up with this..
I don’t, and I never have fit into their mold, so they can’t (or won’t) understand or accept me. Fuck, they don’t even try anymore. It’s the ‘smile and nod’ approach to family functions. No animosity, but… there is definitely something missing.
geh. I’ve been living in this house since January, and they haven’t visited me once. I am so tired of being the only one to make an effort.. and now.. she wants to know what I’m doing for X’mas.. wtf else am I going to do?
I’ll go to their place.. it’s not like I have any fucking choice. I know that sounds rough, but.. sigh
ugh.. yayness.. her mother-in-law will be there….joy to the world….. kill me now.
i feel so isolated from them..