ok, my dreams are not letting me forget. i’m trying to move on from this, i really am… but over the last few nights, all of my dreams have featured me being trapped somewhere, somehow, not being able to do or say what i want… it started with the bathroom dream.. then there was a corporate boardroom, a medieval dungeon, a house (one that i usually search through), and a boat..
blargh..
i was talking to dr.x about some of this… he was asking me about his own stuff, which i won’t go into.. but it made me think about all this… it’s hard trying to think back to when i was like that.. i’ve changed so much over the last 10 years, its kinda difficult to relate to it again… but then, it does relate… i’m probably not making sense again.. sorry.. in a way, i feel like a cross between the younger me, and the person i am now…… i want to resolve this, but i have no idea how, nor do i want to rock the boat..
in the dream i had this morning i rocked the boat, trying to escape.. and it sank. but then, there was a storm happening at the time..
i should just shut up.